lilin >_

went bek thru sum of my latest blogs, figured out sumting - some joker had tonnes of mood swings! phew… thankz for bearing wit me la. but… mood swing buster’s here to save the day. swing no more… muahaha…

nothing much’s happening here, other than lazying about. u noe wut they say about exam week? it’s the time wer we… RELAX!!! whooeeyyy… crappy or jz crabbing, it’s true. dis’ s the season to be jolly, and happy, and sleepy, and tv-addicty, and … (if oni i can draw a pig here…). neway, try to imagine one la,k? and plz do me a favor… plz imagine it to b a PINK one! ooohhh lovely…

penang’s POURING everyday. made everyone sleepyheads. imagine sleepyheads roaming around… n now, imagine the zombies frm resident evil roaming around. wakaka…

went for a horror movie laz sat- haven done dat since emily rose freaked me out. rilly rilly rilly freaky. cz u kip havin dat same horrifying image playing in ur mind, and wen u wanna sleep, our good fren comes to accompany u… den u rilly dun feel like sleeping. but then ur upper eyelid has a good relationship wit ur lower eyelid, and INSISTS on being together. and wen theyr together our good fren comes to visit u… ahhh!!! so… that’s the fun of horror movies, i guess…

after horror movie was nice- went to makan, and then… ta daa… dragged poor fren to the multi-storey aquarium shop in … er… sumwer in penang (exact location… i duno). finally. iv been wanting to go ther since the first day iv been to penang laz laz year! funnnnnnn… got lotsa weird funny and sumtimes ugly looking fishes.and best part was ther’s puppies there! sooooo super cute!!! n there’s sum other weird things like tarantullas, (invisible) scorpions (cant find them), and geckos. toking abt dis, i hav a date to the nite zoo nx month. guys, dun u dare to forget our date yea???. else feed u to the lions…

nothing much. on a makan spree now. makan makan makan, even wen there’s nothing to makan, can miraculously find sum crappy stuf to makan. makan makan makan… gotta buy new jeans soon… makan makan makan…

tokin abt makan… ever told u dat my rabbit used to love live wires? she’l munch only on wires that r plugged in. contohnya- my speakers, my playstation, my computer, my tv, my adaptors, my everyting! haihz… destroyer in the form of a rabbit. beware of bunnies. theyr not as innocent as they look…and now her new love is makan-ing choc. n mom will giv her all the nice nice chocs- dark chocs, toblerones, daims, anything!!! sumtimes bekalan choc habis disebabkan oleh rabbit tersebut… cis!!!

so… dats all la. still got 3 more papers to go. after dat it’s hapi hapi hapi langkawi!!! yippee..

m bek in penang (again), after 6 days of pure bliss at home. was sleeping most of the time, so if i din get to mit up wit sum of ya, so sori… mr chow’s the person to blame. he dated me too much..

o yea… hapi deepavali and hapi raya!!! pardon me, but raya’s kinda quiet dis time around. wut happend? and the same old same old happend la- shopping malls are THRONGED by non-muslims gaigai-ing everywer… so din manage to do much shopping dis time… sigh

caught the world trade centre wit uncle n bro who by the way wer dressed in black tops n jeans. so uncle tried to brokeback bro! imagine two big guys er- holding hands walking together? and others i leave to ur imagination la… haha. yuckz… wuts gonna happen to dis world? haha. saw a clip wer sum guy was free-falling frm high high above ground in wtc, and all the rescuers could do was jz to watch him falling. dat was rilly intense…

went to cameron highlands too. went wit a bus load of AUNTIES n UNCLES! so naturally it was pretty aunty stuff… buying vegetables, free LEONG PENG hokkien n mandarin songs frm god noes WUT YEARS, wit equally leong peng MVs… and worse part was it was these songs all the way uphill and downhill… and they put it LOUD. cz i tink they tot that everyone in the bus has the hearing of a 70 year old. how ‘exciting’ was dat? okiz, the oni reason i went was bcz i wanted to teman my mom, not bcz im aunty yea? im FARRRR away frm being an aunty… mind ya…

funny how people tink dat cameron is all fresh air and greens and stuf lik dat. all i remembered frm my past two trips wer the smell of diesel, carbon monoxide, and other vehicle smokes… guess it’s getting polluted huh?

so m bek in penang now, trying to cramp in some stuf bfor the exams. all the best to pen-exam-people-an yea? hv fun…

and yea, i came bek on a double decker - COOL!!!

hmmm… paiseh. rupa-rupanya i forgot some info abt the whole account thing. so… nw - PROBLEM SOLVED! yay!!!!! i get to kip my one week allowance! wakaka…

life’s STILL bearable. 5 more days till i hit home. yay! gonna amalkan the open one eye, close one eye philosophy till then…

"people are bastards coated wit bastards wit  bastard fillings"

howzat?

DONT agree… but sumtimes people around me jz let me down WAYYYY too often dat dis phrase MAY be jz true…

still CLINGING to sum hope in humanity tho…

i WANT to sleep. everytime i hit the bed, i cant doze off. jz one more stage to go. i hav time to sleep. i DESIRE to sleep. but y cant i doze off? dis’s pretty RIDICULOUS. i can imagine how imsomniacs feel abt dis. VERY frustrating.

jz feel like sleeping these few days. wen ur not hapi, all u wanna do is jz sleep. but im not sure wut im unhappy abt. brain’s churning all the time, and all dis while im not sure wut im tinking about. it’s like a badly edited movie… bits of snippets here n there. doesnt make any sense at all. doesnt do any good at all. all it does is to giv a u bad headache.

jealousy. blinds people. simple word. COMPLICATED effect. god noes wut people do wen theyr jealous. some people r treating me weird. hav some conclusion that theyr jealous. of wut? my pretty wonderfully pathetic life at is point of time? or are they happy and celebrating now, that everytime a semester is ending, my life hits the rocks?

dis’s jz CRAPPY. i jz wanto surviv nx week, and go home. dat’s all i ask for.

man… life’s cruel…

i REPEATEDLY told sum1 not to trust me wit cash, even my dad doesnt trust me wit cash. I dun trust myself wit money.

and yet, they chuckd almost 4k of cold hard cash to me. and today… is accounts day. the verdict of the smart assness of trusting me wit money is- im short of 100+ bucks.

i can blame all the world for my carelessness… mayb carelessness wasn a good enouf xcuse for sum. but how issit dat i hav to do all the donkey job (bliv me, the tension was rilly nerve-breaking) and in the end, sum people can EVEN get away wit @#$%& benefits, while i hav to compensate. it’s jz not right. jz not fair. mayb sum will say dat dis wil be a VERY good lesson for me.

im willing to compensate, cz it’s due to my carelessness. wut i dun understand is dat how come some people jz sit back, relax and hav all the fame n glory during so called ‘their’ concert, while i gotta work my ass off. it’s jz not fair… heck, it’s MY concert too… but the workload distribution is wayyyyyyyyy too biased. is dis the REALITY of life? life’s jz not fair…

im not gonna get myself into all dis shitty stuf anymore. i didn even voluntered. was DRAGD all the way into a pond full of @#$%. plz jz SPARE me the agony. i jz wanna LIVE.

in the meantime, i gues i jz have to wave goodbye to my one week’s allowance

there’r 3 kinds of horible people in dis world:

SUCKERS, FAKERS and LIARS

nids no elaboration. bet uv met some of them.

i honestly n mightily hope im not surroundd by any of these people.

one fren used to tell me dat she did a lot of things for us, it’s jz dat v didn realise it. i askd her why din she tell us? she said she dun see the neccesity for her to tel us her deeds. i told her dat she shud tell us, cz v cant read her mind.

now i understand her feelings.

last sat, after our family dinner without dad, we had girls’ tok in our room.suddenly a fren said dat one of the juniors realised dat i dun like her. i said im like dat- im a ‘at the moment’ person. my weakest point is, im v quick to judge a person, and most of my initial judgements are horrendously wrong. and honestly, i dun care abt her feelings, cz basically i dunno her n she dunno me. v had v limited communication of wutsoever kind, dats y she dun understand me n i dun understand her. and the nx stuf i got was dat im berat sebelah- i have my favs. okiz… here’s the scenario. i truly bliv dat there are causes and effects in life. wen sum1 is nice to u, ul b nice to them. isnt it? so i was kinda close to dis guy who incidently was one of the better string player, cz he toks to me n i tok to him. and no other juniors who actually tokd to me (cz they were waiting for me to tok to them. i admit it, it;s nice having a senior to be buddy buddy wit u. i was insensitiv. pardon the insensitiveness…). i told her dat i couldn care less  of wut they think of me, cz iv done more than my part for them and theyr not exactly people who r vvv important to me. (i hope u get wut i mean. there’s a lot of stages in friendship isnt it?). but the nx statement was rilly hurtful-

i was accused of sucking up to my ‘fav’ jr due to his talents. wow… i did a lot of stuf for them n dis’s wut i get? to be labeld as a SUCKER. fren told me dat the juniors dunno dat i did lotsa stuf for them (even tho it’s not basically my job to babysit the strings section). i jz felt dat i dun nid to tell the whole world wut iv done, cz i din want the recognition (saves a lot of embarassing moments). den suddenly i remember a vvv familiar scene dat happend abt a month ago, ie the first paragraph.

life’s like dat. sumtimes u tok too much, not noe-ing the real situation. wutever said may sound sooo damn philosophical and idealistic at dat point of time. den wham bam- ur very own words betray u…

’twas mooncake day yday. ’twas a BLAST! if u dun include the morning part la (cz i hav ukur tanah submission-abt 1 and a half inches thick report!, and studio and later in the afternoon, bm karangan!)

went to makan ikan bakar at sum place opposite pantai jerejak. the waiter/waitress dat took our order was a lenglui/ lengcai. actually of gender unknown. so vl call him/her subject x la.subject x took our order, and then mom and frens went to pilih the fish to be grilled. saw a coupla frens there too- created a RUCKUS! had much fun… tho din tok much. cz long time nvr makan makan beramai ramai d. there’s abt 12 of us! cool huh? den went the food came- taadaa… satay ayam. siham! yuckz. fried squids (was xcited over it, but gav up cz not enouf batter n too… sotong).seafood tomyam. yuckz. and then…. grilled rays! yay!!! had tons of ‘em. mom rilly sayang us, picking fishes for us. cz bear n me usually had our parents to pick fish bones for us… hehe. spoilt brats! but still it’s pretty much fun.

went to fren’s place after dat to kepo. they created a ruckus there! whoo hoo. me n bear r jz contented watching tv (i kinda miz dat idiot box). yay!!!

after dat it’s henna again! it’s getting rilly adictiv… huhu…

so once again the bahagia feeling sets in. tho m far away frm home, but still yday’s simple yet full of positiv emotions celeb rilly made me feel at home. dat made me rilly bahagia. iv tons of mid autumn makan stuf here too (mooncakes, sum traditional biscuits, yam…etc-truth is i duno their names. ahaha) here too… thanx to dad.

penang’s getting fun after all…

gonna go partial family dinner later (whout dad). better do sum serious work first… c ya…

my life currently revolves around homeworks, homeworks and more homeworks. how sweet… yday i officially declared it as my rajin-est day of dis entire semester. did the dumb asas ukur tanah ting for a total of abt 15 hours straight yesterday- and the good news is… it’s not done yet! yay  "><  dis sumb assignment was created in order to torture the students and aso to proof dat leong dei koons are actually not as free as people thought. hence, it includes 4 pieces of A1 drawings of weird pentagon areas, and one huge drawing of land contours on a humongous piece of graph paper PLUS a 50sumting pages report. nice huh?

and to bring more joy into life, my studio is actually two weeks behind time, so wen everyone has got elevations and even perspective drawings, im stil trying to figure out my floor plan. hurray! and wuts more? my ‘not more than 50pages’ report of a building for prinsip reka seni bina due in two weeks’ time hasnt even got a TITLE yet!!! pretty cool huh?

neway, not gonna harp on those geli geli n yucky stuf. yea, homeworks are seriously yucky stuf. ask anyone on dis planet, bet ul get the same answer (xcept weirdos gua. or those who rilly LOVE homeworks… in dis case, plz pardon me for my insensitivity k?)

tomoro’s mooncake day! yay… last year my life was as sad as a washing machine dat doesn spin-dry (a tribute to the gila washing machine in my apartment), i din even had a taste of mooncake. dis year… people brought n aso bought me moooncakes. see… told ya dis world is still full of love. tho mooncakes r not exactly my fav, but still it’s rilly a hapi ting wen people includes u during a festival/celebration. so tomoro i actually had sumting lined up, tho m not dat sure wut it is.

toking abt celebration, muthu askd me to go for a diwali celeb at his place!!! yay… but a thu r… im not sure whther can make it anot… tho i told u dat i cant make it… cz im not sure if bro’s gonna be bek on time or not… thankz for inviting yea? laz year’s party was a blast, c-ing u wit ur family and c-ing other long-lost sesat-ed frens. plus the xperience of driving in a not so familiar place wit blurheadd bro… haha…

toking abt diwali… had a blast playing henna last weekend. basically we wantd to draw cats on hsemates’ legs (abov our ankles) but in the end oni me n bear managed to have it. others wer too busy… hmmm… it’s ok, i still have two unopend tubes on my table (try finishing one. those magical tubes seems to flow out nvrending flows of henna). so i had a half butterfly on my left hand (bear said it’s hard to draw a symmetrical object, so thats y the half tingy…), a fish tingy on the arm and another butterfly abov my elbow PLUS a cat abov my ankle. cool… bear had a wall’s like heart symbol on her hand and a cat on u noe wer (abov ankle la). dad… dad kena conteng all over his arms. i dun even noe wut the motives r… oni managed to remember a scorpion and a seahorse. and a pig. the rest… i dunno. so dat’s how v duo lo-ed the weekend away (and hence, the gila days ahead for me. see… wutever u do has it’s consequences. moral of the story… dun duo lo).

okiz… gotta gobek to figuring the design for the dong pusat konvo tingy. toking abt dis, i haven used a t-square officially for two semesters d… how crude can dat b, being in an architecture skool… haha.

am going to be bek in kl on the 20th of oct. c ya

*anti t-square*