lilin >_

i tink i can stil vaguely remember the times wen i was stil an enjoyable company. i make more friends than enemies. i tink…

now… im turning into a monster. seems like most things i blurted out (even if i rilly meant well) do not convey wut i really wanted to convey. in the end, wutever that’s coming out from my idiotic tongue dat does not seem to pass through my brain (or was my brain idiotic too) hurt or annoy the daylights out of people. in the end… i make more friends than enemies. im not good company anymore. im lilin the insensitiv monster.

it’s sickening how a good thought can be interpreted as sumting dat’s rilly bad, and there’s no one to blame at all, coz in the end, it’s the good old monster that conveyed it wrongly,  all wit the stupid tone, even dumber body language and idiotic choice of words.

am not trying to gain attention or pity. am surprised how horrible iv become. and how glad am i to hav my family, a nii, room mates and some frens dat do not hesitate to point out to me my flaws, and kip me grounded on earth, and also to stick through me although iv been the biggest prick on earth.

thankz people. i love u all and im sori if iv hurt u in any ways. it’s purely unintentional, honest. do continue in helping me to grow up. i nid to grow up… and get out from dis disaster.