lilin >_

i never knew the meaning of cherish. even if i knew wut it means, i never practice it. so here’s the same old (getting annoying) advice:

CHERISH YOUR LOVED ONES

ok, y so sentimental suddenly. lemme tel u a story. may b abridged, but it’s real…

last thursday during one of the public speaking class, a guy came out and told us sumting dats close to his heart (yea, vr supposed to stand in front of 16 people and tell them sumting dat’s close out our hearts). so here’s his story:

"i came from a middle class family. life was good to me. i get to hav wutever i want, i hav a family, i hav good brains, and i even hav the looks! form 5, i scored 11a1s (whoa), a nice gal, and even a scholarship to singapore.

but, my english wasnt good. hence, i kept failing all my subjects. that’s when i decided to come back to penang. i continued my form 6, and life was back to the usual. until…

one nite, wen i was asleep, someone came knocking on my door. i went to answer it, only to find a man showing me a card, asking, ‘do u noe who is this man?’. it’s my dad’s id card. then he added, ‘this man was found dead in a road accident earlier dis evening. can u plz come wit me to identify the body?’.

so i woke my mom and my bro, and went to the mortuary. it was indeed dad’s body! my world came crashing down. after 3 days, wen the funeral and everything was done, i thought that mayb the worse nightmare was over. i hugged my mom on the last day of dad’s funeral for the first time in my life. i held her tight and told her dat i love her. and we went to sleep, hoping that things will turn out better soon.

the next day, i found her lying motionless on her bed. she chosed to ‘follow’ my dad. she hardly took any form of food nor liquid for the past 3 days of dad’s funeral. a few sleeping pills easily did the job.

dad used to tell me dat i shudn take everything for granted. that they will not be here forever to take care of us. little did i noe things turned out this way.

i would gladly give anything, everything, jz to spend another hour with my parents".

so… u see. cherish ur loved ones.

enouf said.

heyz people,

dis’s the finale for the tak takut mati series la. my laz day in the office.

weirdly, it feels kinda strange. segregating my works to my successors, it rilly rubs in dat ur not gonna be here anymore. weird becz i tot i wudn hav dis kind of feeling. but as it turns out, mayb people here has INDEED became a part of my life. ha…

dis’s one of the worse breaks there is. if u can call these three months a break. if being cheap labour is taking a break. cant the unis even spare us a week off or sumting like dat? for a vacation or pure lazing leisure? mayb v shud mogok eh? hehe

so, in summary, these three months has been VERY SERIOUSLY idyllic. even though i stil haven picked up any 3D modelling skills (due to over IDLING), picked up tons of others that’s equally precious. spent some precious momeents wit piggy buddy, close frens. but sadly, not wit my family. took it for granted dat theyr and will be there alwiz. will spent the remaining day wit them, wont make up the time lost, but still, better than nothing.

annoying monkey bro went to aussie yday. woke up real early to send him off, felt like a zombie for the rest of the day. (dad came up wit that word. since i woke up he called me a zombie. how nice… ><"’) so, i guess lion will be missing him lots. cz dat dumb dog been lookig real dumb since he left, and is trying to terrorize my dad for a change. (which is somewut suicidal. dad doesnt, and WILL NOT tolerate any forms of terrorism from a dog.). well, good luck to lion.

getting sum pizzas wit frens tonite, and i hope SIZZLING new?\s! haha. how we ADORE gossips, but HATES being gossiped. howzat?

ok la. gotta go bek to penang sun noon, u guys take care la. tink its gona b fun hangging out wit my roomies, frens and piggy buddy gain after so long.

take care guys.

KA SDA, Shamelin, 2.30pm, friday the thirteen, 2007.

holla people, am bek again to hog dis space after a week long absence. anyone mized me? haha

was bek to penang for a coupla days laz week kononnye to prepare for the upcoming architecture camp. but mostly i did a lot of WAITING, for dudes who kinda live according to their respective time zones. haha. but it was fun, watching dudes dancing to doraemon. and having origamy lipat-ing workshops. (did tons of origamys,and guess wut? i even noe how to fold a pig! yep, good old oink, in 3D. ask anytime, and il give u one. oink oink.

and so, 3 days befor the camp, a dude suggested we do a model, and with oni 2 days to work after (finally) confirming the design, we did lotsa wire cutting and pulling and getting scratched and … yea. and it’s kinda cool u noe. cz after oni 2 days of intensive wiring, u get to develop upper arms muscles! haha. there u go, new found inspiration to make models using wires.

and guess wut? our model did win! top of the class! rm1000 wei… but… i tink all of it will go to usm la. so… huhu… but the sheer pleasure winning and wiring beats the rm1000 kot? best part is, it’s gonna be displayed at the archidex cum KL Datum. cool eh? haha.

1000 bucks model

and the archicamp was great. v sneaked out for a movie - oceans thirty in the middle of our ice breaking, together getehr wit out timblan dekan! all thirty of us!, i tink.

so the ticket vendor was like, u guys come watch movie satu kampung?

but there were lots of time wasted.

and UIA is rilly rilly rilly pretty! tak aci weh… usm was like… hmmm… wen i reachd the reception place, my oni tots wer like… how the rest r gonna react wen usm host the camp nx year.. wit our pink drums and lecture halls? haha

and after 8 working days off, it’s bek to cheap labour again. huhu. and a drooling dog. who loves posing for the camp. and licking ice. and irritates the daylights out of people. especilly if ur a guy. he likes gals, but is nasty towards boys. guess tat’s a straight doggie there huh? =p

o yea, tot might as well end wit a story my buddy buddy told me.

unfortunately (yes… it rilly started with unfortunately!), the frog fell in love with te rat. so they tied their legs together and the frog went for a swim. the frog was rilly happi. kuak kuak it goes… (actually, im not sure who’s the he and who’s she… so we stick to it la can?). the mouse drank too much pond water, and died. and being a carcass who used to be unfortunately in love wit the kuak kuak frog, it floated to the surface. an eagle saw the body and snatched the rat who died a hapi rat. and along it the frog kinda kena snatched too. so the moral of the story is… i leave it up to u la… ><

duh…

i have another 2 weeks of cheap labour. catch u guys soon!

and people, su ee is bek!

hav fun…!

u noe wen ur hormones are playing u and u feel seriously down?

ever been the invisible person everone hates to become, but in fact is a very part of u? dat ur invisible, whereas all this while u tink dat u get along well wit everyone.

the truth is, u dont noe me, and u dont even care. rite?

i mean, you as in SOME of those people. some who actually mattered to me. but in the end, im as invisible as a keropok lekor among tons of other keropok lekor. t

ruth is, u nid to be rilly sparkling shiny to shine out. either dat or u irritate the daylights out of other people, dats y everyone noes u. but in some ways, it works too. oni dat ul be a serious pain in everyone’s ass…

being invisible. it’s sumting i hate. and it’s sumting dat i kinda excel at

actually dis’s the only part three of the tak takut mati god-noes-how many- logies (derived from the term trilogies. well, im a long winded person. so my bet is dat i wont be stopping at the third chapter.)

the whole of the office is having OH SO YUMMY MCD!!! mmm… oh well, i guess wen ur pay is as good as one who pays cows to munch grass, one will choose to eat grass. whoops, side tracked. sori…

neway, the point is, u gotta earn ur food. thou shall not eat if thou doth no work!

work’s been pretty crazily hectic for no point at all. i mean, u rushd to finish up all the railings, u crack ur head to tink abt the railing details, and wut happens is- the railing details change every day!!! and i mean it!!! ha… so…

by doing redundant work u waste a lot of time. by wasting time u get less production. less production means less profits. less profits means less mcDonalds and less mcdonalds eventually leads to … better body curves?

sori. got sidetracked again. the effects of dating sumone who scores in timeline series. so beware wen choosing who u wanna date.

imagne if u date sumone who erm… sells chicken eggs for a living.

‘darling, i saw dis most beautiful egg today’

‘ooo… yummy, dat can be turned into a gorgeous omellete’

and the guy goes touchy. WUT DO U MEAN OMELLETE? it’s so BEAUTIFUL dat ul wanna kip it by ur bed so dat the laz and first ting dat ul see is the most beyootifullll egg!!!

and after a month wen it gets so irritating, the gal breaks the ‘looks beautiful outside, but u dun wanna noethe insides’ egg on his bed.

and that’s the end of the hapi egg couple.

nah. crap. the bell rang. it has the most ridiculuos tune to it. mayb architects are all cuckoo after all. gotta get bek to work…

hav fun people…

orange dis time. cz not so berani. u see, it’s 50min wayyyy past office hours, and im stil here. y? u ask. it’s not becz of the loyalty due to the rm500 for crazy hours without over-time…

u see, im being held captive here. the laz word bfor a certain human being went out for meeting 2+ hours ago was…

"TAK BOLEH BALIK LILIN! U WAIT TILL I BALIK!"

and ther she went. tak balik balik lagi. (hmmm… either it’s a superheated meeting, or… il leave it to ur imagination la huh?)

neway, here m i, stuck here, doing nothing. heyz, i earned dis moment! been working for the past ten hours virtually non-stop! even wen im savouring my precious ‘cheong fun’ wit plenty of fishballs, i stil gotta work! arghhh… the frustration of a cheap labourer.

so now, wut can one do wen one hav to wait RELUCTANTLY in vain for sumone who dont really respect other people? one BLOGS! and blogs in orange font! mind u…

yay.. she’s bek! bye!

ahhh… the color of bravery again. dis time, blogging from office!

semangat ketidaktakutan mati. very good.

so… work’s kinda monotonous. hardly fun, unless ur idea of fun is sitting in front of the super outdated autoCAD, drawing (seriously similar… come on, hos different can toilets be?) stuf again and again and again, only to discover come smart alec revised the design (AGAIN) and u gotta start all over again. so… go figure…

people here’s kinda nice though. and wut’s the story of racism? heck, i work in an officeful of non-chinese, and im hapi. so racism ke tak? it’s in the mind… (oni ting is, u cant eat so much piggy freely la…and the babi was saved from lilin. haha)

nothing much. bro went bek. good thing abt bro coming bek is dat ther’s someone to do the dishes =p

lion (my nonsensical dog) aka big brown bear is hopeless at catching cockroaches. u see, one day, wen i was doing the dishes, one big GIANT COCKROACH appeared out of no wer… so… i went…

AHHHHHH…. LIONNNNNN!!!!! COCKROACH!!!!

and the dumb dog didn even notice the cockroach… mayb to him i soundd like…

lion sweety, there’s a cute little roachy there… see?

dogs… ><

neway, our brown bear jz stared at the dumb roach, and when it moves, he’l whack the poor cockroach with his paw. thats all. lousy bear…

ok la… so long with the brown bear and cockroach story… gonna get bek to work. hav fun guys =)

buddy buddy’s coming to kl dis week… so got lotsa gaigai-s to catch up! yay!!!

ahhh… red. the color of bravery.

define bravery. bravery is… wen ther’s tons of exams waiting for sumone and dat sumone pulak lepak lepak oni. b for bravery. b for BODOH. haha…

o yea… wen i tuned in today, guess wut i saw on yahoo?

choco-peanut butter cup. dis is so wrong man… OH WUT SINFULNESS!!! (saliva drooling… and kept on drooling, and my keyboard’s jz got his shower…). ther u go… anyone who’s gonna try to make dis, do gimme a call yea? il be ther ditto!

so laz sunday v wer invited to sum church aunty’s house for lunch. and i tot… oh noooo…

and OH NOOOO!!! i WAS SO WRONG! it was way sooo cool having a sense of belonging finally in this church, and everyone was so fun. aunty and uncle was so cool… and fun too! and the masak masak thing was MMMMM… out of this world!(v had western, and western was it. not malaysianised western… hehe). aunty has dis fun dog (a schnauzer) named pepper, and two parrots. and our frens (the parrots) actually noe how to call pepper! and aunty said dat their vocabulary includes… ‘u want roti roti roti roti roti?’ and… (ur gonna like dis…) ‘AYOYO… y so dirty???’. ayoyo… imagine ur parrot asking u dis question… wakaka…

ooo, bek to the color of bravery. penang’s weather been crazy. it’s panas beberapa ratus hari, and then suddenly kaboom! hujan hujan. hujan for a while, then teh- o-ais-limau-tambah-ais-tambah-ais-tambah-ais days again. ahhh… i actually miz kl weather. PLUS the traffic jam…

hapi hapi hapi hapi hapi. oh joy. i hav two more exams befor i get 3 months of being a cheap labour. says who malaysians r not cheap labour? vr the best example… undergrads. cheap, efficient and reliable =p go cheap labourers!

going off… going off….. gone. tata…

holla people…

laz blog hasnt been at all pleasant. time for a brand new crap-free lilin. and actually, a crap-free lilinz (my darling comp) too!

too crap free in fact, cz i accidentally ter-ERASE most of my stuf! arghhh… the agony of losing so many memories! my photos, homeworks, and all other crappy stuf

pen-crappy-an.

newayz, lotsa things happend, and unhappend. mostly to wrap up the second semester.

went to school’s unofficial dinner. lotsa leng lui-s there! whoa… nvr tot that my skoolmates can be so be-yoo-tiful!

then ther’s the concert to celebrate the perlantikan of our new chancellor wer we playd for… melayu asli songs. kinda cool. very kampung feel. and the ex-queen’s GORGEOUS!

and… i went hiking! teluk bahang changed a lot since the laz time wen we went ther. prettier. took another trail, and guess wut we saw:

nah, not an arsenal fan. but the cool zen feel. the pool’s actually sum waterfall-swimming pool… (duno how to describe =p). and… found a green frog swimming in the pool. hapily swimming. GREEN frog! as in dis green. serious.

and… after mendaki two hills (dengan bersusah payah dan berpeluh-peluh), we finally reachd pantai kerachut. be-yoo-ti-ful.

meromictic lake. ok. the name’s crappy. the look’s equally crappy. but it’s actually rilly cool. during certain seasons, this lake actually consists of fresh water on top and seawater on a layer below the freshwater. with prawns, crabs and all other creepy crawlies. that tantalizes tastebuds.

                         pantai kerachut. nice rite? the sand’s BURNING HOT. cz we reachd at abt 3pm. pandai (cz lilin woke up late).

then on our way bek… guess wut we saw…

little (digimon) tortoise got lost. tiba-tiba termuncul beside the forest trail, on top of a hill. tersesat i tink. poor little torty. and so i askd a great tortoise fan wthr tortoises exist on hills anot. he said yes. to reinforce the answer, our good friend ther told me dis very good story.

pada suatu hari, sang arnab mencabar sang kura sekali lagi, kerana tidak puas hati atas kemenangan sang kura pada perlumbaan akhir. sang kura mencadangkan supaya mereka berlumba di atas bukit. pada hari perlumbaan, sang kura rolled down the hill. and won. and sang bunny lost.

hence, the picture was sang kura waiting for sang bunny. on a hill.

very good. great imagination i would say.

anyway, the hike was real good. came bek feeling like an old aunty, with mosquito bites everywer. slept 10+ hours after that.

going bek to studies. hehehe. trying to study to no avail. mayb shud jz wait for sang bunny to come eh? to come and makan my homeworks. and notes.

hapi studying, people.

i tink i can stil vaguely remember the times wen i was stil an enjoyable company. i make more friends than enemies. i tink…

now… im turning into a monster. seems like most things i blurted out (even if i rilly meant well) do not convey wut i really wanted to convey. in the end, wutever that’s coming out from my idiotic tongue dat does not seem to pass through my brain (or was my brain idiotic too) hurt or annoy the daylights out of people. in the end… i make more friends than enemies. im not good company anymore. im lilin the insensitiv monster.

it’s sickening how a good thought can be interpreted as sumting dat’s rilly bad, and there’s no one to blame at all, coz in the end, it’s the good old monster that conveyed it wrongly,  all wit the stupid tone, even dumber body language and idiotic choice of words.

am not trying to gain attention or pity. am surprised how horrible iv become. and how glad am i to hav my family, a nii, room mates and some frens dat do not hesitate to point out to me my flaws, and kip me grounded on earth, and also to stick through me although iv been the biggest prick on earth.

thankz people. i love u all and im sori if iv hurt u in any ways. it’s purely unintentional, honest. do continue in helping me to grow up. i nid to grow up… and get out from dis disaster.